I am the proud mom of a seventeen year old boy, 13 year old girl, 9 year old boy and a 7 year old girl. I have had a dream of being a full time stay at home mom since I was a little girl. I'm living that dream. Is it easy? No. Is it always fun and games? No. Am I perfect at it? Of course not! In fact, just ask my four blessings on any given day, and I'm quite confident that you will be given a laundry list of things that I have failed miserably at! ;0) I'm sorta kidding, but not really. If you were to ask them they will most likely tell you that I quite frequently lose my temper, and quite often find myself yelling and screaming in order to get their attention. I have slowly learned through God's love and grace with me, that I am to show my kiddos that same love and grace even when, like me, they don't deserve it. Sometimes in the midst of all our chaos, running from karate, to baseball, to football, to dance, to co op and everywhere in between, we lose sight of what is important in life and forget to count our blessings. That's me right now.
You see, as a homeschool mom, there is always someone who has somewhere they need to be or something they need to do. Until last year, it was all on my shoulders! I was overwhelmed, exhausted and headed down a path that was not leading me in the direction God meant for me! My hubby worked long hours with about a 45 min commute. Something had to give!
Last year, God blessed our family with a route that we had been praying for. When we took the route, we were aware that it would be a pay cut, but were willing to sacrifice for the good of the family and more family time. We knew in our hearts that it was God's will for us.
The months that followed were really exciting until reality set in and that pay cut started really making an impact. To make a long story short, dental and vehicle repair bills have started mounting. Are we worried? No. Concerned, yes, but not worried. We have seen God turn so many of our chaotic moments into moments of blessing. I am slowly learning that if I take the focus off my circumstances, put them on Jesus and people who are truly struggling, Jesus turns my chaos into blessings. I may not see it as a blessing in that moment, but God is at work in every detail of my life to make something beautiful out of the mess I have made, if I will get out of the way! As I close, I'd like to remind us of the verse "Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord , whose confidence is in Him."(Jeremiah 17:7 NIV) Be Blessed!